lying here in this bed....

so.. it hasnt even been a week since erika left and i am already so blah.. i wish the world would stop. i hate my job. it sucks completely. you know.. what used to send me into a blah phase would be me going for a long period of time without doing anything. and once i got to where i was busy then everything would be fine. i would come out of my blah phase and everything would be happy. that thing to keep my busy used to be work.. but now it doesnt even do it for me anymore. i hate going to work. i hate being at work. i hate leaving work because i know that it just means i am going to have to return to it the next day.
i miss erika. i try to talk to her. but she *wont/cant* answer. because she is either busy with her new friends. or busy with classes *which started today* ... i used to be able to call her and she would answer.. i could walk into the next room and she say hey. and tell her about my day.. but now i dont have that.. i miss it.. ugh.. i hate this.. i hate being sad. i hate wanting to cry.. please help me fix it.. i do not know what to do.. it seems like every post now is about something sad.. but i dont want my life to be just sadness.. ugh.. ugh.. ugh ;_;... this sucks..

on a plus note. i did get officially accepted into UNT.. or so i thought.. but it says *conditionally accepted* not sure what that means.. which sucks face... so yeah... i hope it isnt to bad.. please dont be bad...