figuring out my future plans

so ok i am trying to hard to get back into college not that it is a hard thing to do. but i mean. i *took a year off* and am now trying to get back into it.
i have been looking some stuff up. and i know that i am going to be doing to biomedical science program at ntcc for two years and then transferring to A&M college station for the remainder of my degree. if i made all a's and b's in my math and science classes and i have atleast a 3.6 GPA then i am guranteed a spot in the A&M biomedical science program which is awesome! but like i did some research and made sure that eveyrthing i was doing was on the right track. so this is what i have figured out.

do become and anesthesiologist i will need to grad high school *duh* but then get a degree in premed or biology or something. so that is what my major is. but then i was confused on if it was the right thing to take to become an anesthesiologist. but i finally found the answer on a yahoo answer *thank you yahoo* but anyway. the answer is yes.

i will get my bachelors in biomedical science and the specialize in anesthesiology in medical school. so i am doing everything right!! i will have to retake my ACT for sure to get a higher score. and i will have my MCAT to study for so i can get into med school with no problem. i really really hope that everything goes according to plan.

i really do not wanna live in poverty for the rest of my life.

a regular anesthesiologist start out at over 200k a year. that is almost 4000 week. would be so happy and rich. not happy because i was rish but happy becuase i would be able to survive and not have to worry about bills and such. so wish me luck please. i need it.





ok so this is a lil bit later but same day. i was looking into med schools. and i found a med school i want to attend. southwestern medical school. yay

my thinking in the gas station.

so usually my thinking and being alone in the gas station is really bad. but today i have been thinking about space and time and such. and i have come to the conclusion that i believes proves that time doesnt exist.

Time is based of light. and without light he would have nothing. we go by our rotation around the sun. and when we look at the sun we are actually seeing 8 min and 17 secs into the past.

so a question to myself when i feel like this again. since black holes absorb all the light around then. it stops time. *correct* so is there a way to actually reverse time? i believe idk. like you cant undo the changes that things made based off time. but can you go back into time? it confuses me. we cant ungrow but like. light that is already seen. what would happen when you take it back. ugh so confused will edit it. when i can get my thoughts straight. -kota


part 2 like five min later.

you can't go back into time. but you can see the past. if that makes sinse to you. it does to me. you wouldnt be able to change the past but you could see it. if we had the technology to somehow reservese the way light travelled. but then again the objects that the light bounced off of would be moved. but the light would have already been there. so would it matter? i dont think it would. becuase it has already happened. you would just be viewing what has ready happened. becuase even though the object has moved. if you reversed the light travel. you would be seeing the light hit off and return to the exact spot where it bounced off the object. and see where the light changed and made colors when certain rays bounced off and others absorbed. so even though the object wouldnt be there. you would see it as if it is there.

so for now. can you travel back into time. no. but can you see into the past. yes.

movie time!

so i have am home for the weekend. heading back this afternoon so i can wake up early and be on the set of la art show. which is so cool. i am extremely tired considering i have to be there at 530 am so i get up at like 330 or 4. because we have to wear a tux and stuff. and it takes about 45 min to an hour to get there! but i have had a lot of fun. this past week was all day shoots for about 15 hours a piece. so yeah big bucks XD i met some cool people. and i actually met the people from ktbs channel three news and spoke to them XD it was cool. and i am currently sitting in the gas station at work being bored. but its alright. i like it like this. it gives me time to blog! XD

and to give an update on the whole moving and transferring thing to store 606 in longview. needless to say i didnt do it. i was have been using way to much gas just to get to work and back. it was cheaper to stay here in DF. so i will just have to put up with the bs and deal. like everyone else. and the occasional vacations for the movie and stuff helps. alot.

i got into trouble for not being nice to the customers the otherday. i was *short* with them. i am just tired of people taking advantage of us. you know. like enough is enough. and some people up there just let the customers walk all over them. i am one of the few who will tell a customer no. and on that note. i will get off here. thanks for listening. though i know no one reads this thing cept me XD when i wanna remember things that has happened :)