will my blah mood end?/?

i can't seem to shake my blah mood. but maybe that is because i have yet to find the cause of it... money? work? parents? all three.. that would be my guess... today my day started off just fine.. then scanning verification just put my in a bad mood. and it only went downhill from there..i started feeling sick. and i got a headache.. i couldnt reach any of my friends.. i feel like i am drowning... in over my head... submersed into the world too quickly... but thats not right... i should be able to handle this.. so why can i not?? it makes me sad.... very sad... ...

on a plus note.. my parents are looking into this new house.. in town.. which is great because this dirt road that we live on is killing my rendezvous.. but i am going to have to come up with the deposit for them.. plus pay my other bills... i am going to the bank tomorrow to try to get another loan.. wish me luck.. i need it.. maybe i can get 6 or 7 hundred.. that would help out tremendously...